ringing like a bell through the night — sunflowerzuko: sunflowerzuko: As a few know, I...

As a few know, I have been struggling financially for a while. Things were going well for a bit, but the onslaught of terror from my parents never ends even now that I am financially independent and live a country away.

A few months back my university e-mailed me to inform me my first year tuition had never been paid off and that if I didn’t make outrageous monthly payments of $1000, they would put the debt away from the schools responsibility and have my credit attacked. This came out of nowhere because I had taken a loan out to pay my first year of school.

This is when I found out that my mother decided to use all the money for her own expenses and left me basically screwed. I have a good relationship with my mom, so this completely shook me. I didn’t expect this from her. I got my monthly payment lowered to $800 and started paying out of pocket and have otherwise been ignored when asking her for help to pay off this debt that was not mine in the first place. I have to become more persistent in that she pay this, not me, but until then, I’m left alone with this.

I already pay ~$600 a month for rent. With another monthly payment of $800, living is now completely impossible unless I figure this out. Because I have no insurance of any kind with my temporary resident status, I cannot afford my medical expenses anymore. I have severe ptsd and anxiety and anorexia. I have been suffering and required a doctor since I was 12 years old. I cannot afford this changing for the sake of my health. This also means my transition has been put on a complete halt.

My abusive father and stepmother do not help me financially. I can only work up to 20 hours a week legally, which I do in the span of two days every weekend. I would like to try and open up commissions, but last time I did, the stress of my money situation left me so overwhelmed I couldn’t go through with it. I will update this post if I decide to open them up.

I don’t know how to express with words how scared I am, and how vulnerable I feel making this post. I haven’t been sleeping and this has aggravated the mental illness I spoke about above even worse. This has seriously been aggravating me to the point of near relapse. I am lucky to be living with my boyfriend whom helps me manage my eating problems during this trying time, but he can’t fix everything.

If every single one of my followers donated me $1, I would have more than enough to survive. But as I know that is too much to ask for, please at least reblog and signal boost this post if you are unable to donate to me. It means just as much to me as a donation.

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Thank you for reading this and I hope you have a great day.